when it rains it pours

Life sure handed us its fair share of challenges lately. I won’t get into detail about them, because this wouldn’t be a blog post, it would turn into a book, but I’m convinced that this is the Universe throwing us curve balls to see if we are tough enough to stick this thing out.  All of these curve balls seem to be happening in succession. Isn’t that how it goes?

I’m trying my best to roll with the punches. Enjoy the moments. But it’s just so darn hard, when you feel like you’re getting knocked down, over and over again.

This whole year feels like a challenge. There are so many unknowns right now. As this season winds down, we are taking a risk and cutting back a big piece of our business, the landscaping. The decision has not been an easy one, but after reflecting on what we want our future to look like, we are realizing the management of the landscaping jobs and crew is more stress than we would like. This is so, so scary. For years, my in laws ran a successful landscaping business. They figured out how to make it work for them.  And now it’s our turn to figure out how to make this business work for us.

I have so much anxiety around this transition. We are going to have to have faith, and trust that we will figure things out. I may have to go back to work as an OT. Or sell a lot more Tupperware and build a team (my goal!) Dave may have to find other work outside the home this winter. We will figure out a way to expand the retail nursery side to increase some of our income. 

I have no idea how this will pan out. Right now, it’s feeling like it might not. The doubt is creeping in. I have thoughts in my head, can we even do this? Deep down in my heart, I know we can.

It’s just going to take time, trial and error, and a whole lot of hard work and trust.