It still hurts. It's probably always going to hurt. Which leads me to ...it's just not fair.

We all have our problems.

Our grief and messes.

Some is new grief, some is loss we have carried with us for a long time.

Some days it's heavy. And some days it feels ok.

I was told this is what it might feel like.

"You'll have your days," they said.

"The strangest things will trigger your sadness," they said.

And they were right.

I have my days, and the strangest things trigger me. But I have to believe there's a purpose behind all of this. A reason for this process of grief.

Here's to finding out what that is.