Thoughts on 37 weeks.

Today marks 37 weeks. 

photo cred: Jami Milne.

photo cred: Jami Milne.

We are so, so close. 

I have so many emotions, thoughts, and feelings, but mostly the anticipation and excitement wins over all of it.  In 2, maybe 3 weeks, we will have a baby joining us (and maybe before!)

I taught my last yoga class a couple weeks ago, at 35 weeks. I feel so fortunate that I was able to keep teaching yoga throughout my pregnancy. And this week, I went to class, and plan to go each week until this baby makes his/her debut! Yoga has so many benefits, both physical and mental and especially for my stretched and bulky body, and my anxious and nervous mind! 

We are up to once a week doctor appointments and have had extra testing (non stress and ultrasounds) every week to make sure baby is still doing okay! And so far, so good! I am ready to be done with weekly appointments, but I know it is temporary, and worth it. 

I love this photo of the front of the baby's face. The ultrasound was showing chubby cheeks and hair. :)

I was so fortunate to have our friend Jami drive up from Des Moines to spend the afternoon with me on Tuesday, snapping photos of my belly. I have only seen a few of her shots so far, but I know I am going to be so grateful that she documented this time. 

photo cred: Jami Milne.

photo cred: Jami Milne.

It is a time of waiting. We are resting, and sleeping in (while we still can) and enjoying our time just the three of us (Lena is ready to be a big sister too!) 

The outpouring of love for this sweet baby has been overwhelming (in a good way) and so, so appreciated. 

Have a Merry Christmas everyone! 




thoughts on 28 weeks

28 weeks. 

We made it. 

This is the moment in my pregnancy where I breathe a sigh of relief.  

We had a doctor's appointment last week, at 27 weeks.  

It was a year and a half ago where we went to the same appointment, at 27 weeks, with David, where I drank that delicious orange drink in preparation for my glucose screen, and then was given the worst news of my life. 

But this 27 week appointment was different. I left the clinic on cloud nine. The baby's heart beat is strong. His/her head is measuring at 29 weeks (yikes!) and everything else is measuring right where it should. At 27+ weeks.

I've been waiting for this. I needed this appointment to go well. I needed this pregnancy to go well.

And so far, so good!

I had a minor set back and had to go in for the 4 hour glucose screen, but good news, I passed! 

I'm starting to expand around the middle. I'm feeling WAY more movement and I LOVE IT.  I love every minute of it. 

I'm still craving sweettarts, but definitely finding more ways to get those delicious seasonal root vegetables and greens into my diet. 

I'm not worried about my weight, I'm staying active, doing yoga 2-3 times/week and I'm still spinning (although I'm nearing the end of this) once/week. 

We are allowing ourselves to envision what our lives are going to be like in January. It's going to be here so soon!

And I'm letting myself get excited. Knowing nothing is guaranteed, but also knowing things are different.  

I can't wait to meet this little nugget.

our rainbow baby

i'm so excited to officially announce, we are expecting our rainbow baby in january!

the term rainbow baby is used a lot in the "baby loss community" to describe the baby that follows the loss of a child. 



we miss baby david every single day.  being pregnant with my second child has brought a lot of feelings and emotions, but mostly, i'm just so darn grateful.

grateful that my body was able to support another pregnancy.

grateful that we have made it this far.

grateful that i get to experience pregnancy again, this time hoping for a more positive outcome.  

grateful that we WILL get to meet this little life.  

grateful for my whole journey: the excitement, the heart ache, the anxiety, the grief, and the hope; every last bit of it.

totally relaxed and chilling with his/her feet up and crossed 

totally relaxed and chilling with his/her feet up and crossed 

this journey is certainly bittersweet.